The End of December?!

26 November 2011

Hari ini masinisnya sedih banget..

Umurku 17 tahun tepat 12 hari yang lalu dan 12 hari berikutnya untuk pertama kalinya aku nglawan abi aku.

sakit banget ya rasanya..

ya.. sakit banget. dan aku nglawan abi aku untuk sesuatu yang udah nggak aku punya lagi

Pernah ngrasain di mana kalian punya.. yah "Frinds things ever after" ya itu yang aku rasain

Untuk pertama kalinya aku berontak. Just for to meet with my "Frinds things ever after"barang 5-6 jam.

gak lebih. sesuatu yang bener2 aku harepin selama 5 bulan aku gak bareng mereka. bahkan akan lebih.

Just for enjoy their best performance in the best program from their. Dan itu gak bisa.

Oke pertimbangan orang tua masuk akal. masuk akal banget. Dan aku mulai berpikir dengan logikaku.

I can meet with them in end of the year. Yes.. and my happiness come back.

I just Tell that to my bestfriend. and she just Told me "Better if you dont come to here because there's not people at here." And she Told with a not comfortable style. And I know.. that She syle.

I cant thinking again. maybe if i say my tears pull down that its not to much extra ordinar right?!

Gak tau. yang jelas aku dah males.. Aku ingat abiku dan aku menangis. Aku ingat Dia dan aku menangis.

Aku bisa bicara ke siapa? Banyak orang yang terlalu kecewa,

But! There's not somebody can understanding my Felling. Their're Blame me to much!!

And I cant angry to anyone. I I cant Blame anyone except my self.

You cant against you're perents. And I againts my self too..

And now,, in front of my laptop i write this and i cry.

I try to tell to may another bestfriend. But maybe he's so busy and not respect or lazy to respon my problem. He just said "All of people will go home" And He tell the trust. And I just keep quietly.

Yes I know. And I'll never with their.

There's to many pressure in my mind. and my heart and many more of my body part.

And i finished it, with a .. yeah.. Something to do maybe.

I'll continue at another time..